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What Showing Up To Fail Can Do For You
The Wake-Up Call I Needed
Thirty minutes before go-time, I decided that I wasn’t going to attend my technical interview.
I hadn’t prepared at all, and I was in no mood of making an idiot out of myself in front of an unknown number of computer scientists. Especially since this was for a SQL-based position, and, being a coder, I should really know my SQL.
As the clock ticked, I sat at my desk and gave myself a full-on lecture.
You always do this. You just decide not to go. You decide to avoid failure over any possible opportunity.
“Critical Me” was spot on in this case. It’s not like I would lose anything more than the respect of a few people I would probably never see again. My anxiety made it seem a lot more serious-like they would pillory me in the public square for failing to adequately answer their questions.
I have a job. It’s a good job, but it is obnoxiously boring. I’ve begun to care so little about it that I often wonder if I’m self-sabotaging. Don’t get me wrong-I do my work, but I don’t try to “expand” in my role. I don’t try to take on new projects because that would just mean more hours of drudgery.
I know in the gut of my heart that it’s time for me to make a career change. This is why I applied…
